The week of chaos is finally here and surprisingly I feel a pretty strong peace and calm. We’ve done everything we can to plan for baby and the move. Weeks ago we made two long lists and we’ve slowly been tackling each item. We are as ready as we can be for baby. The essentials box is packed, hospital bags packed, there’s a plan for Minny and a plan for Ashlynne. We are ready for the move with almost everything packed. Movers, painters and carpet cleaners are all booked and everything is in line for closing. I’ve written down a master schedule with all the contact information needed so that if baby decides to come someone has the plans. The floor plans are in place and ready for the movers. Ashlynne’s new bed and dresser have been ordered. I’m so thankful for the progress we’ve made. I suppose that’s probably a big part of where my peace has come from, but ultimately with this much chaos, it has to come from the Lord.
Baby could come any day. I’m 38.5 weeks pregnant. Baby is due in just 11 days. We move in 6. Casey keeps trying to talk baby out. He’s anxious to meet his precious son or daughter. I am as well, but I’d much rather baby wait until after the move. We are also in the middle of exams for Ashlynne which is occupying quite a bit of time. You know, if only we could plan when baby will come.
I must say that this pregnancy seems to have gone on forever, but at the same time, I’m shocked that baby is going to be here in 3 weeks or less! Crazy how it can seem to take so long and come so fast all at the same time. I don’t think I’ve had much time to think about the fact that baby will be in my arms soon. The house and school for Ashes has been a major distraction. I know it has kept me from being anxious about delivery or over thinking motherhood, but I hope it hasn’t stolen my joy when it comes to anticipating baby. I really am beyond excited to meet our baby, but my mind is so wrapped up in the move. Plus the idea of having our baby in my arms soon seems so abstract. It just doesn’t seem real, even though it’s active in my belly and tangible in that way. It’s so fun to watch baby move around or hiccup in my belly, even though sometimes it can be quite painful. It’s just a miracle from the Lord and amazing how it all works.
Even with all the preparation and planning, all we can do is pray that God has grace in his timing, allowing us to get through the move before baby comes.Originally written March 18, 2014.